Not A Morning Person

(Picture is not me! I'm a girl.) I'm definitely not a morning person. I set my alarm, to 6 a.m. this morning, and I woke up and everything, but secretly wished I could fall asleep again. I lay in bed for a good 15 minutes, closing my eyes and wanting to go to sleep again but at the same time knowing I had to get up. I had to do the work. I can't just wish for it and have it happen. I needed to do something different as what I normally do to achieve the change, as goes one of my favorite quotes. So I started remembering the post I had written last night, about the girl who claims she wants to be like "one of those stupid, slutty girls with a fast metabolism", and I immediately bolted out of bed, ate my breakfast of a peanut butter sandwich (absolutely no milk) and orange juice, changed and left the house, thinking to myself the whole time, "I am not stupid nor slutty, and I do have a fast metabolism, but I refuse to keep being told that I'm some anorexic girl like her!"

Want to know what's truly pathetic and amazing? As I scrolled through said crazy girl's blog, I found another post of hers in which she claims her BMI is 25 point something, technically overweight. Here we have this bitch who can't just get "skinny" properly, just chooses to starve two days in a row and then binges and barfs the third day. She is FAT, and she is ANOREXIC. I AM SKINNY, AND I AM NOT ANOREXIC!!!! Bloody f*ck*ng HELL. Times like these I honestly wish I had been born with balls. I wouldn't have to go through this shit. I doubt people would seriously think I was anorexic. "Oh, he's just a SKINNY GUY."

So today, I worked out for twenty minutes or so my legs. Thighs/hamstrings and calves. I feel great now, so at peace. I don't understand why people don't like to exercise. It's like the best legal high you can get, besides an orgasm.

Look What I've Found...

The Anorexic Queen

Wow. Just wow. These girls have their heads on backwards, in my opinion. I found this site a little while ago, and so far I'm thinking it's going to be pretty motivational for me, too. I'm also starting to see into the heads of the people I am constantly being told that I "am". Um, I'm not at all like these girls. Geez, if I were, I would've chosen a quicker way to commit suicide, surely. At least I'm trying to be kind to my body and actually get it healthier. These girls seem to love torturing themselves, because they completely hate themselves.

To quote one post there that really irked me: "i hate all this... i wish i could be one of those stupid slutty girls with fast metabolisms, hah. they eat all day, drink alcohol, do drugs, and still manage to look like they're under 100 lbs..."

Girls with fast metabolisms are stupid and slutty? Why would ever want to be that? I think I'll start assuming all anorexic girls are mentally retarded and would be better off killing themselves, or sterile, so that the idiocies don't perpetuate...!

*hmmphf* Sorry, blood started to boil there... I think I'm going to seriously print out that quote and tape it above my bed and onto my desk.

Jillian Michaels

You're Not Doing Me Any Favors...

...when you try to compliment me by telling me that I've probably only had a glass of water all day.

... when you pull me aside to ask me, with the most serious tone of voice I've ever heard, if I'm anorexic.

... when I tell you I don't look good in bathing suits, and you say it's nonsense, then see me in a bathing suit and bombard me with "OMG you're sooooooo skinny!!!"

Okay?! lol It's getting on my nerves. I don't know why people respond with such perplexity and offense when I tell them I want to gain weight. I guess the majority of people will always associate "weight" with "fat". Weight is pretty much everything that is contained within your epidermis, everything that is attached to your epidermis (hair and stuff), and the epidermis itself. So, I can easily lose two pounds in the morning by taking a morning dump! It doesn't mean I lost two pounds of FAT!

When you call me "anorexic/skinny" with a less than pleased face, I imagine this:


I don't know how you could be proud to look like that. There's a thing as being too fat, and there's a thing as being too skinny. I'm sure people who fall under the "too fat" category are not pleased if people start coming up to them accusing them of being binge eaters. Just wish people would shut their mouths. I'm working on myself already, but unfortunately it wouldn't be professional to blurt that out to every customer who came in to comment about my body. If only I could comment about theirs...

"OMG your face is so wrinkled!"
"OMG your breathe stinks!"

=P Ugh, sometimes I hate people, but these are the types that are keeping me motivated!!! :)